Definition
of a Mentor
By
Kathleen Hall
I met him in
1977 as I stood nervously in line, holding out my hand to shake his. It had
been rumored for days that the esteemed Dr. Roy Walford was visiting our laboratory.
I was working as a graduate student in Dr. Ron Hart’s lab at Ohio State
University. Ron Hart’s interest and intellect was broad, and as graduate
students we benefited from the concurrent grant support for these ideas which
included asbestos, pesticides, and radiation. But more importantly, he was one
of the few scientists at that time who had an interest in the “how and
why” a man ages. One of the other few people in the world to share this
interest was Dr. Roy Walford. Roy had written a book on immunology and aging,
a theory that body’s own immune system was responsible for a relentless
attack on the human body.
Ron had picked a few of his students to be introduced to Walford and I was lucky
to be one of the chosen few. My first view of Roy was not at all what I had
expected. He was smaller in stature, muscular, deep blue eyes, with a closely
shaven head and a long horseshoe moustache that pulled down the corners of his
mouth into a serious solemn look. In contrast to the solemn expression, he wore
a colorful Indian madras shirt and vest with a brightly dyed scarf tied at his
neck. He was definitely not a conformist when it came to dressing, but a striking
picture of a man who dared to be different.
We were not to meet again until a year later in Tokyo, Japan. Although my central
research area was pesticide research and genetic damage, I was working on the
side on a project for the San Diego Zoo. The director of the zoo was providing
me blind samples of primate tissue that I cultured and analyzed for ability
to repair DNA damage. After a year’s work, the study revealed a correlation
of repair of genetic damage and maximum lifespan in primates, a publication
that earned me an investigator’s award and a trip to Tokyo for presentation.
As I stood nervously at the podium on that stage at the International Meeting
of Gerontology in Japan, I noticed sitting in the front row, the same serious
blue eyes, the same horseshoe moustache and a different set of colorful clothes,
all belonging to the great Roy Walford. My heart skipped in fear that me, a
lowly graduate student, fighting for a Ph.D., was expected to lecture to someone
like Roy Walford. My presentation betrayed none of my nervousness, just the
pride of my data. As I turned from the last slide and asked for questions, it
was Dr. Walford’s hand that raised first. His questions then, as I was
to describe years later, were not to challenge but to support my data in ways
I was yet to see.
By the time I saw him again at another meeting somewhere in the heartland, my
fear of him had receded to a deep respect. I had learned that the solemn expression
turned to the quickest smile, which lifted the long moustache on its very end.
He laughed at everything. He loved to hear my description of life in the Midwest;
he loved hearing of me juggling a family and a farm with research and science.
When I would tell a story of chasing two cows down a highway in time for a meeting
with a great Russian scientist, he would roar with laughter.
One day, after a session in Dallas, he asked me of my plans after graduation
and if I would be interested in a position in his laboratory at the University
of California in Los Angeles. He promised to arrange a visit for me and true
to his word, a short time later; two tickets to Los Angeles arrived in the mail.
He apologized that he could not meet me at the airport, but asked that I take
a taxi to his place in Venice Beach because he had arranged a small luncheon
to welcome me to Los Angeles. His directions to his home included a description
that involved finding a small alley behind a boarded, graffiti covered storefront
on Pacific Avenue, a description while frightening at first, I was later to
learn involved one of the most expensive pieces of real estate in California.
I remember distinctly entering his home, somewhat in terror, under an arch of
what once had been red plastic roses, now faded a dusty pink (I later learned
the roses had belonged to his mother, a women he loved dearly.) The few steps
through the arch led into a huge studio that really has to be seen to be appreciated,
but has been shown and described in detail in over a hundred magazines and TV
specials. The walls were covered with contemporary art, large pieces hung freely
from the two-story ceiling. A hand carved table by the mural artist, Victor
Henderson, sat under a brightly colored Indian tent. Huge bookcases held topics
on every conceivable subject from music to history, philosophy to science. I
remember entering this environment in my own little wool traveling suit with
matching bag and shoes feeling as if I was Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz.
Roy tried to make me feel at ease and shortly thereafter in walked a small group
of his friends that Roy introduced. I asked what they did thinking they must
be scientists from his lab and they said they had a small band. (I was later
to learn that Roy never limited himself in his friendships. He was equally at
ease sitting on a mountain top in India, exploring a new artist or musician
or talking to a Nobel Prize winner.) I asked one band member, Janice, the name
of the band and she stated “The Manhattan Transfer”. My reply was
one of eternal embarrassment. “I am sorry, I don’t know the band”.
My days in Kansas were definitely over, and that day my true education began.
Actually it wasn’t Kansas, but Peoria. Roy used to like to say that he
never knew how he found me in Peoria. My education was small country schools
and my high school was in the middle of a cornfield where tractor pulls were
the norm. My years in college were spent trying to finish a four-year degree
in two years with two small children. Anything other than science was meant
only to memorize a text, pass the exam and put the class behind me. I had little
knowledge of many of the things that Roy held dear like art, philosophy, music
and literature.
Roy immediately began to correct this. He gave me space in his lab, which included
a small office and an adjoining large laboratory and encouraged me to paint
them brightly and fill them with interesting art. I think that later the color
choice of office paint in the Department of Pathology at UCLA was limited to
beige and white because of our decisions to paint all the labs bright fuchsia
pink, metallic greens and vivid purples. He helped me scout import stores and
international bazaars and the walls were lined with our purchases of Indian
prints, Mexican weaves and contemporary art. He encouraged freethinking in his
lab, the atmosphere was casual, and all members working hard producing incredible
science in an atmosphere that included visitors from all over the world. Every
morning he would appear at the chair next to my desk to discuss the science
for the day. But always when he left, I would be holding something that opened
the door to a new cultural experience. There would be a small book of poetry,
a copy of Conrad’s “Heart of Darkness”, a suggestion for a
piece of modern theater, tickets to a wrestling match, a flyer on a contemporary
art show, a tape of modern philosophy. He lived life so fully and became impatient
with anyone who lacked his vision and his depth. When he discovered that I had
never been to Europe, he delighted in preparing me for my first trip. He gave
me lists of things to see and do and provided introductions for me to the “right
circle” to make sure I met the interesting people. His “letters
of introduction” led me to barge trips in Amsterdam, feasts of smoked
eel and gin, dinners in quiet bistros on the left bank of Paris discussing the
effects of science on contemporary art. His letters always read something like
this: “I am introducing my Kathleen to you; she is a bright and wonderful
person, take care of her.”
His influence on my life continued as we published several pieces of research
together, and even later as we both threw in a few thousand dollars and started
a small business together. He loved my family and was a frequent guest at our
home. He admired this part of the stability of my life although he never wanted
it for himself. We always swore our respect for each other was so deep that
one of us would always be sitting by the bedside of the other as we died and
joked who would be in the chair and who would be in the bed.
Sadly, our friendship drifted the few years he was in the Biosphere. When I
saw him again, I remember entering the same door down the alley behind the boarded
store front, now with different graffiti. The roses were gone. He was working
in his familiar spot behind his desk, dressed in the same colorful clothes with
a new bright scarf tied at his neck. I remember the color of his shirt matched
his eyes and the eyes were filled with tears as he took me in his arms. We both
cried for the years we had let slip.
I moved to New York and Roy again worried that I would not meet the interesting
people that would lead me to a world of art, science and culture so again he
gave me that letter that said, “This is Kathleen. She is bright and wonderful,
take care of her.”
When later during a visit to Los Angeles, I noticed the strangeness in Roy’s
gait, I encouraged him to visit me in New York to see a specialist on Parkinson
Disease. I will never forget that afternoon as Roy and his daughter, Lisa, returned
from that visit. They sat quietly on my sofa as Roy, again with tears in his
eyes, told me of the diagnosis.
With his illness, Roy gave me his last lesson in life. He fought the illness
with his intelligence and the enthusiasm to live and produce. Roy and I together
with his daughter, Lisa, and his friends exhausted all the literature, looking
for a cure, a solution. I found myself scouting the alleys of Chinatown in New
York searching out a particular mushroom, looking for the best grass to help
him through the pain. He continued writing, taking courses on film production.
He had me all over New York and in Dallas for just the right production shots.
His letters were filled with performances I should see, a musician I should
hear. He ordered me tapes on classical music and tapes of lectures of bright
new philosopher.
Now my Roy has left me and I am no longer Dorothy wandering through Oz. I march
for political causes; I read everything and try to see everything. I collect
wonderful friends and lead my life as if each day was the last. I am not afraid
to be seen as eccentric; I like wearing crazy clothes. I am still a scientist,
but I see science in a new way. I am no longer a reductionist. I look for bigger
ideas. I have learned from my mentor in my life.
It is my turn to give a Letter of Introduction. “God, this is my Roy.
He is a wonderful and unique person who loved life. Please take care of him
until I get there.”
Kathleen Y. Hall, Ph.D.